Hopefully it will all work out in the end. Hopefully I will be rewarded for the chances I am taking now and end up making some important unique photographs (ambrotypes). Sometimes in life you need to take chances, go out on a limb (I learned that in Thailand). I see the finished and amazingly beautiful ambrotypes in my mind, I see them hanging in a large gallery with crowds of Canadians viewing my vision of Canada. I see the plates living on past my death. I want to make them a reality, I have to make them a reality. I cannot stop now, there is a destiny here, not about me personally but instead a destiny about the importance of the pictures, the art. They are waiting to be created, they need to be made. I will to continue to take financial, creative, personal risks and hope for the best. Great things are not created by the timid.
This will all work out in the end, I feel it. After all what are my problems compared to my subjects from the past? Families working the garbage, people living in the slums of Bangkok, the life of a bar worker, what my dad went through day by day. What are my little problem, simple unimportant problems compared to theirs?. I need to learn from their examples, they faced TRUE STRESS, my stuff is minor league.
This project will work, I will make it happen, it has to work, THE MASSIVE AMBROTYPES WILL BE CREATED!
Note* This stress and difficulties stuff will fit well into the artist talk for "Oh! Canada!!" Everything has a useful purpose in the end. If doing 35x35 ambrotypes was easy, then everyone would be doing them!