Saturday, December 11, 2010
Ants
When setting up my 4x5 today to do a portrait of Weaw's father I carefully looked for ants (and snakes) first! Yesterday I managed to step into a ant trail or nest area! The little suckers can bite! You can hardly see them their so small but when they start a biting, I start a jumping!
Chiang Kong
Am in Chiang Kong now, a small town on the border with the country of Laos. From my guesthouse balcony I can see Laos across the Mekong river.
Tonight had dom yum bla buk (dom yum soup with catfish from the Mekong). This might be the best dom yum I have ever eaten a large bowl with lots of meat cost 120 baht ($4.00 CAD).
I will wake up early tomorrow and grab the 4x5 before heading out and trying to find some people to photograph. Over the last 2 days I have gained confidence with my 4x5. The people I have met love to be photographed and the 4x5 is less difficult to use now, I need to work faster and smoother but it is much better now compared to my misadventure with this camera setup in Klong Toey.
All the people I have asked to photograph with the 4x5 have agreed, they love to be photographed, which makes my job a lot easier! This Khon Thai project is a go!!!
I hope eventually to move up to the 8x10 camera and make some important portraits, if Jock Sturges and Sally Mann can do it, why not Mr Gerry? It might take years of effort but there is a certain beauty in large format photography I want to acheive with this project (Khon Thai).
Tonight had dom yum bla buk (dom yum soup with catfish from the Mekong). This might be the best dom yum I have ever eaten a large bowl with lots of meat cost 120 baht ($4.00 CAD).
I will wake up early tomorrow and grab the 4x5 before heading out and trying to find some people to photograph. Over the last 2 days I have gained confidence with my 4x5. The people I have met love to be photographed and the 4x5 is less difficult to use now, I need to work faster and smoother but it is much better now compared to my misadventure with this camera setup in Klong Toey.
All the people I have asked to photograph with the 4x5 have agreed, they love to be photographed, which makes my job a lot easier! This Khon Thai project is a go!!!
I hope eventually to move up to the 8x10 camera and make some important portraits, if Jock Sturges and Sally Mann can do it, why not Mr Gerry? It might take years of effort but there is a certain beauty in large format photography I want to acheive with this project (Khon Thai).
Quotes: Weaw
"I know I have limits because of my disease but I still dream of having a family of having a man who cares about me. But how can I do, I'm BLIND!!"
"I never had a real relationship with a man, where we stay together a long time and are happy, I want that so much"
"I never had a real relationship with a man, where we stay together a long time and are happy, I want that so much"
Weaw's Home
Spent 2 nights at Weaw's home. The home is poor but not very poor, I saw a poorer area of Thailand my first trip back in 1996. The neighborhood is clean and well kept with a paved road leading from the highway. Behind the houses are farming areas with rice fields and various animals. Weaw's father who is a farmer has 2 large and noisy pigs (one pregnant) 2 disinterested cows (one pregnant) and a few dozens chickens, there are also a couple of noisy roosters who woke me up each day with their crowing.
Why do roosters crow when its still dark?
The family also have 2 lovely dogs, Angel and Bong. The people who live in 2 houses are Dad, Mom and Grand mom. Grandma likes to hear me speak Thai (maybe I sound funny!) and laughs at my silly jokes. I told her one the other day (speaking and acting it out) about 5 barking dogs (one with saliva hanging out its mouth) who scared me and came close to biting me at the local Buddhist temple. She thought it was funny because Thais ignore the dogs and just march in, where as I was sort of fending them off with my 4x5 camera mounted on a tripod.
The people in the the neighboring houses treat Weaw with respect and kindness, maybe a bit of sadness as well. She has been honest with her neighbors and told them all she has HIV. I liked the fact they did not stare at her because she was blind, in Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai I saw many Thais staring at her for long periods. In her own neighborhood it is different they remember her from when she was a little girl, they joke and talk to her as she walks past their homes with her cane and glasses.
Weaw is a strong lady and I tried to show her strength as well as her sadness/loneliness when I made portraits of her. I never really realized how important eyes are. I think we all know and we all say we know eyes are important but until you see someone you know and care about walking into things, talking to people who are not there, crawling on the ground trying to find something, you really never know how important they are. I will never underestimate the importance of eye sight again.
Made photos of a few people in the neighborhood and of Weaw, her father and grandmother. I also did a few pics of the animals and the farm.
One more note, enjoy your hot showers! When I stayed at Weaw's home I could not take a hot or warm or semi cold shower, the only option was freezing bite your tongue off COLD!!!!!!
Why do roosters crow when its still dark?
The family also have 2 lovely dogs, Angel and Bong. The people who live in 2 houses are Dad, Mom and Grand mom. Grandma likes to hear me speak Thai (maybe I sound funny!) and laughs at my silly jokes. I told her one the other day (speaking and acting it out) about 5 barking dogs (one with saliva hanging out its mouth) who scared me and came close to biting me at the local Buddhist temple. She thought it was funny because Thais ignore the dogs and just march in, where as I was sort of fending them off with my 4x5 camera mounted on a tripod.
The people in the the neighboring houses treat Weaw with respect and kindness, maybe a bit of sadness as well. She has been honest with her neighbors and told them all she has HIV. I liked the fact they did not stare at her because she was blind, in Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai I saw many Thais staring at her for long periods. In her own neighborhood it is different they remember her from when she was a little girl, they joke and talk to her as she walks past their homes with her cane and glasses.
Weaw is a strong lady and I tried to show her strength as well as her sadness/loneliness when I made portraits of her. I never really realized how important eyes are. I think we all know and we all say we know eyes are important but until you see someone you know and care about walking into things, talking to people who are not there, crawling on the ground trying to find something, you really never know how important they are. I will never underestimate the importance of eye sight again.
Made photos of a few people in the neighborhood and of Weaw, her father and grandmother. I also did a few pics of the animals and the farm.
One more note, enjoy your hot showers! When I stayed at Weaw's home I could not take a hot or warm or semi cold shower, the only option was freezing bite your tongue off COLD!!!!!!
Bus Ride To Weaw's Home
The bus from Bangkok to Chiang Mai was very nice (9 hours 30 minutes), I slept like a little snoring baby. The bus from Chiang Mai to Chiang Rai was nice also (2 hours 45 minutes) but did have the slight smell of urine in the air. The bus from Chiang Rai to Weaw's home (2 hours) was difficult! Packed to capacity, no A/C, windows open, dust flying, no place to put my feet, and 7 men standing directly in front of me.
Am amazed at how cheer full Thais can be in such a difficult situation, things that would make me go bonkers they just smile at and accept. Standing for 2 hours on a dusty, hilly and bumpy road but still smiling and joking!
Am amazed at how cheer full Thais can be in such a difficult situation, things that would make me go bonkers they just smile at and accept. Standing for 2 hours on a dusty, hilly and bumpy road but still smiling and joking!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Met Som Jit Again
Yesterday as I was photographing a young girl next to a old wall a man walked up with a masked face and stuck out his hand. I shook the hand not realizing who it was (everyone here sticks out their hand to me), after looking at the eyes more closely above the masked lower face (sort of masked like villains in the old west) I realized the man was Khune Som Jit.
Som Jit is the honorable man I wrote of before who had his face damaged in a fire. The mask must be there to help him get customers for his motorcycle taxi business, he also probably does not want people staring at him.
It seems Khune Som Jit had come back to his home to help deliver his son to school before returning to work and saw me so came up to say hi before leaving. I told him I might not be back to Klong Toey for 3 or 4 months maybe longer but that I would bring him some of the photos I shot at that time. I also told him I would be going up North to Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai and possibly Laos as well. Som Jit understood me and nodded, as the words came out of my mouth I realized a man like Som Jit no matter how hard he works will never be able to enjoy a simple trip like I am doing to Northern Thailand, to visit a foreign country even one very close like Laos was also impossible for him. Something I take for granted and talk about without thinking about a man like Som Jit could never do. He will continue to live in his slum shack, continue day after day to drive his motorcycle around Bangkok making a few dollars a day, his life will not change. The things I enjoy, the places I will see and the people I will meet will never happen for Som Jit, he will never have the chances or the opportunities I accept and boast about without thinking.
Som Jit is the honorable man I wrote of before who had his face damaged in a fire. The mask must be there to help him get customers for his motorcycle taxi business, he also probably does not want people staring at him.
It seems Khune Som Jit had come back to his home to help deliver his son to school before returning to work and saw me so came up to say hi before leaving. I told him I might not be back to Klong Toey for 3 or 4 months maybe longer but that I would bring him some of the photos I shot at that time. I also told him I would be going up North to Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai and possibly Laos as well. Som Jit understood me and nodded, as the words came out of my mouth I realized a man like Som Jit no matter how hard he works will never be able to enjoy a simple trip like I am doing to Northern Thailand, to visit a foreign country even one very close like Laos was also impossible for him. Something I take for granted and talk about without thinking about a man like Som Jit could never do. He will continue to live in his slum shack, continue day after day to drive his motorcycle around Bangkok making a few dollars a day, his life will not change. The things I enjoy, the places I will see and the people I will meet will never happen for Som Jit, he will never have the chances or the opportunities I accept and boast about without thinking.
Weaw
I met a girl today in Chiang Mai who I have known since 2003, her name is Weaw. I found out just before this trip that Weaw was HIV positive and had gone blind because of poor medical treatment at a govt hospital (lack of money prevented her from getting better medical care at a public hospital).
I remember her from back in 2003, a girl full of life, wearing short shorts and a tshirt walking quickly through Bangkok traffic guiding me with an ease Thai people seem to have in the street that a bigger fatter farang finds difficult to master. I remember stumbling and having a hard time keeping up with her. Today in Chiang mai I helped guide here through the streets, she had on long black pants with a tan shirt, dark sunglasses and one of those folding out blind person sticks that starts with a black handle and alternates between red and white.
To see the contrast of the girl from 2003 to the girl of 2010 was heartbreaking. She still was polite, and pretty but the loss of her eyesight made her so vulnerable. She has lost much of her independence, the girl from Bangkok that I knew is gone forever. On top of the blindness she has HIV, here bf of 6 years who is also HIV positive a farang man from England has stopped emailing her, stopped telephoning her. He has cut her out of his life, she told me she did not want to get back together with him but I think this was not true, I wish she could be with him again and be happy with someone she loves.
Heartbreaking day to see the girl I knew then and now. I think thou she will overcome her disability, she is brave, she is strong and she is smart. Today we went to a massage school for blind people, to see if she could join the school. The classes last 3 months and should allow her to earn an income on completion. Many times Thai people like to receive massages from the blind because it a way of making merit, blind people also often do a better job.
Tomorrow morning will go with Weaw to her family home so that she can visit her parents, the home is 4 hours 45 minutes away from Chiang Mai. First to Chiang Rai by VIP air conditioned bus then by ordinary fan bus for 2 hours to Weaw's family home. Weaw's family are farmers so I will have a chance to photograph and to meet a Thai farming family this trip.
I remember her from back in 2003, a girl full of life, wearing short shorts and a tshirt walking quickly through Bangkok traffic guiding me with an ease Thai people seem to have in the street that a bigger fatter farang finds difficult to master. I remember stumbling and having a hard time keeping up with her. Today in Chiang mai I helped guide here through the streets, she had on long black pants with a tan shirt, dark sunglasses and one of those folding out blind person sticks that starts with a black handle and alternates between red and white.
To see the contrast of the girl from 2003 to the girl of 2010 was heartbreaking. She still was polite, and pretty but the loss of her eyesight made her so vulnerable. She has lost much of her independence, the girl from Bangkok that I knew is gone forever. On top of the blindness she has HIV, here bf of 6 years who is also HIV positive a farang man from England has stopped emailing her, stopped telephoning her. He has cut her out of his life, she told me she did not want to get back together with him but I think this was not true, I wish she could be with him again and be happy with someone she loves.
Heartbreaking day to see the girl I knew then and now. I think thou she will overcome her disability, she is brave, she is strong and she is smart. Today we went to a massage school for blind people, to see if she could join the school. The classes last 3 months and should allow her to earn an income on completion. Many times Thai people like to receive massages from the blind because it a way of making merit, blind people also often do a better job.
Tomorrow morning will go with Weaw to her family home so that she can visit her parents, the home is 4 hours 45 minutes away from Chiang Mai. First to Chiang Rai by VIP air conditioned bus then by ordinary fan bus for 2 hours to Weaw's family home. Weaw's family are farmers so I will have a chance to photograph and to meet a Thai farming family this trip.
Bus To Chiang Mai
Arrived this morning in Chiang Mai after an all night bus ride. The trip North took about 9 hours and 30 minutes by first class bus. The drive was quite comfortable, I was able to recline in the seat and sleep for several hours. The ticket cost $21 CAD and included a bottle of water, a box of juice, a box of soya milk and a meal of rice/sausage and curry chicken. They also include a clean blanket to fight off the chills from the A/C.
Monks on buses always sit at the front out of respect for Lord Buddha and his monk hood. It was interesting to see how the food situation is handled for monks. Monks are not allowed to eat after mid day so could not take rice from the bus cabin attendant (dressed in high heels complete with uniform and airplane like hat). The attendant instead of giving rice gave the monks soya milk. Another problem is that women cannot hand things directly to a monk so the attendant girl handed the milk to a Thai man sitting nearby who then handed it to each individual monk. Monks can only receive food as gifts from the people it is a way people who are not in the religious order can make merit.
Monks on buses always sit at the front out of respect for Lord Buddha and his monk hood. It was interesting to see how the food situation is handled for monks. Monks are not allowed to eat after mid day so could not take rice from the bus cabin attendant (dressed in high heels complete with uniform and airplane like hat). The attendant instead of giving rice gave the monks soya milk. Another problem is that women cannot hand things directly to a monk so the attendant girl handed the milk to a Thai man sitting nearby who then handed it to each individual monk. Monks can only receive food as gifts from the people it is a way people who are not in the religious order can make merit.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Speak Thai Become Friends
When you speak Thai in the slums or anywhere else it opens doors for you. I do not know how many times I have had people seem stand offish or shy or angry but after I speak Thai, make a joke, ask them about themselves or tell them about myself, the photos flow. Not sure how photographers can make good photographs in places where they cannot speak the language. I find that language, talking to those I photograph is absolutely crucial to my image making. It also helps me understand the people I am with which hopefully leads to more truth in the images.
Plus its fun to speak Thai!
Plus its fun to speak Thai!
Buddhist Teacher
Photographed a old very thin man sitting outside his slum shack next to the train tracks. The man was extremely thin, I asked him his name and his age but he seemed to ignore those questions. He did talk extensively to me about Buddhism and various famous monks ( some of which I understand most of which I did not). The man was obviously a devoted Buddhist and even invited me into his very small home (like a closet) to see all the Buddhist monk photos and drawing he had placed on the walls. There was also an old lady (his wife?) laying on the floor who got angry when he accidentally stepped on her, she seemed a bit shocked when she saw me standing next to her husband.
Before I left the old man saw that I had some dirt on the knees of my pants and he gently brushed the dirt away.
Before I left the old man saw that I had some dirt on the knees of my pants and he gently brushed the dirt away.
English Speaking Lady
Met a lady that could speak English in the slum. I was not sure if she was all there as her eyes, hair and behaviour was a bit erratic. The children that were near by also did not show her much respect (Thai children almost always show elders respect). When I started to talk to her I realized she spoke fluent English and as a girl ( she was in her 60s when I met her) she had lived in Washington DC. She had been a student for 7 years in Washington and also had a farang boyfriend.
How had she ended up back in the slum? What tragic things had happened in her life? How had she ended up destitute on the streets of Klong Toey?
She gave me some play money that she had in a plastic bag, he wanted me to give it to the children in Canada to play with. I made here photo, she was so thin, so haggard looking. She did not look like she would live much longer.
How had she ended up back in the slum? What tragic things had happened in her life? How had she ended up destitute on the streets of Klong Toey?
She gave me some play money that she had in a plastic bag, he wanted me to give it to the children in Canada to play with. I made here photo, she was so thin, so haggard looking. She did not look like she would live much longer.
Marbles Serious Sport
Watched and photographed 3 children playing marbles today on the Kong Toey slum train tracks (Taung Rot Fai, in Thai), 2 young boys and 1 older girl. Serious business marble playing is! After a few minutes they completely forgot about me as they intensely battled it out in the dirt and rocks between the tracks, to the winner the shiny marble!
A dog with no hair (only soft pink/brown skin) and some kind of growth on his head watched us all warily from a distance.
A dog with no hair (only soft pink/brown skin) and some kind of growth on his head watched us all warily from a distance.
Smoking Boy
Early on in the days shooting I came across a young man named Oh 30 years old crouching on the tracks smoking a cigarrette. Oh looked looked like a homeless kid, no shirt, wearing shorts with messy hair and very dark skin. He was curiously looking at me as I made some tryp-pics with the 6x9 camera and after I spoke to him in Thai he came closer and looked at the camera and told me his name etc. I made a number of photographs of him with the Leica and the Fuji 6x9. He was not homeless as we eventually made our way to a small shack where he put on a shirt. A very quiet man, I thought he might be mute, I wonder if he had a learning disability of some kind or if was just very shy.
Lady Of Klong Toey
With the help of John P I was able to gain access to Mercy and make a few photographs of the "The Lady of Klong Toey". The statue is revered mother type figure for the children and others at the Centre, it allows all the orphaned children to have a symbolic mother of sorts.
Not sure the photograph is anything exciting but it was enlightening to talk to John P and to get a bit of insight in to his thinking. Mercy is sort of a Oasis a Sanctuary in the slum world of Klong Toey. John compared it to a Temple in a a small town, a safe haven for people to congregate.
Not sure the photograph is anything exciting but it was enlightening to talk to John P and to get a bit of insight in to his thinking. Mercy is sort of a Oasis a Sanctuary in the slum world of Klong Toey. John compared it to a Temple in a a small town, a safe haven for people to congregate.
Last Day In Klong Toey?
Am now in Chiang Mai in Northern Thailand trying to catch up with blog entries I could not make yesterday.
I had another moving day in Klong Toey yesterday, the Thais I met were all polite and friendly to me. I met some people for the second or third time and am becoming a bit of a recognised figure around Klong Toey. If I lived in Bangkok full time I would make a visit to Klong Toey 2 or 3 times a week, I could establish friendships. Unfortunately that it not possible the trip yesterday might be my last trip until next year.
I wish had the money to make photos 24/7 365 days a year but heck who can do that? I will go back to Canada work some more and come back again to the people of Klong Toey to hand out photographs and to make new ones.
I had another moving day in Klong Toey yesterday, the Thais I met were all polite and friendly to me. I met some people for the second or third time and am becoming a bit of a recognised figure around Klong Toey. If I lived in Bangkok full time I would make a visit to Klong Toey 2 or 3 times a week, I could establish friendships. Unfortunately that it not possible the trip yesterday might be my last trip until next year.
I wish had the money to make photos 24/7 365 days a year but heck who can do that? I will go back to Canada work some more and come back again to the people of Klong Toey to hand out photographs and to make new ones.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Off To Chiang Mai
Am off to Chiang Mai tonight, it will take about 10 hours by bus. After a short stay in Chiang Mai I will head to Chiang Rai (9 hour bus ride) to photograph hilltribe and rural peoples. I plan to shoot mostly 4x5 in these areas, I got to get good at the cameras some how!! so will shoot shoot shoot!.
Do You Know Poh Jo?
I have made 4 trips to Klong Toey now and have been either associated with Mercy by the people I meet or asked if I have met Poh Jo (Father Joseph Maier of the Mercy Centre) at least a dozen times.
I never talk about Mercy first but it is obviously very important to the people here as they speak about Father Joe all the time. On 3 different occasions yesterday I was asked if I knew Father Joe.
I have an appointment to photograph "The Lady of Klong Toey" (statue on the grounds of the Mercy Centre) today but not sure how that will go as the light might not be good for the time I am being allowed to make the photograph. Security at the Centre is friendly but high, I cannot get close to the doorway without someone approaching me and asking how they can help. I am not allowed to enter the Centre on my own and need a chaperone to be on site. Mercy must have had problems in the past allowing people to roam freely. It is the only place in Klong Toey that I have had difficulty entering.
I never talk about Mercy first but it is obviously very important to the people here as they speak about Father Joe all the time. On 3 different occasions yesterday I was asked if I knew Father Joe.
I have an appointment to photograph "The Lady of Klong Toey" (statue on the grounds of the Mercy Centre) today but not sure how that will go as the light might not be good for the time I am being allowed to make the photograph. Security at the Centre is friendly but high, I cannot get close to the doorway without someone approaching me and asking how they can help. I am not allowed to enter the Centre on my own and need a chaperone to be on site. Mercy must have had problems in the past allowing people to roam freely. It is the only place in Klong Toey that I have had difficulty entering.
Flirting Eyes
I am currently staying in area of Bangkok where there are few farang males. Because of the lack of farang here I am a bit of a exotic species, sort of stand out in the crowd.
Tonight when I was at the mall eating my Thai food and KFC fish burger I accidentally seated myself near a walkway that led to the ladies toilet (in Thailand washrooms are called toilets). As I sat and ate a number of times I was looked at with flirting eyes. It is a quite common phenomenon here for farang males. You notice the flirting eyes thing the moment you arrive at the airport, sort of like you've become more handsome after 24 hours, 3 planes and travelling half way around the world. I am at best an average looking middle aged guy but tonight at the mall I got the flirting eyes treatment from 3 or 4 girls in their mid to early 20s. One girl after I asked her how to say the word "grapes" in Thai gave me 3 flirty looks before I left the supermarket.
I can understand why many farang males that come here go a bit nuts chasing women. Not sure I understand the fascination from the Thai woman's point of view. It might be partly finding someone different and unique, it might partly the perception that farang have more money or maybe the girl is just flirting in thought only and does not really want a relationship.
Tonight when I was at the mall eating my Thai food and KFC fish burger I accidentally seated myself near a walkway that led to the ladies toilet (in Thailand washrooms are called toilets). As I sat and ate a number of times I was looked at with flirting eyes. It is a quite common phenomenon here for farang males. You notice the flirting eyes thing the moment you arrive at the airport, sort of like you've become more handsome after 24 hours, 3 planes and travelling half way around the world. I am at best an average looking middle aged guy but tonight at the mall I got the flirting eyes treatment from 3 or 4 girls in their mid to early 20s. One girl after I asked her how to say the word "grapes" in Thai gave me 3 flirty looks before I left the supermarket.
I can understand why many farang males that come here go a bit nuts chasing women. Not sure I understand the fascination from the Thai woman's point of view. It might be partly finding someone different and unique, it might partly the perception that farang have more money or maybe the girl is just flirting in thought only and does not really want a relationship.
Khune Moo 35 years old
When I was about to leave Klong Toey today I came upon a very friendly man named Moo who was 35 years old. Khune Moo was a victim of polio as a child and travelled around the slum on a 3 wheeled bicycle that was hand powered. When he was born he did not receive a polio vaccination, when he was a child he contracted the disease. I photographed and talked to him for a while, he seemed like a decent fellow, his legs had braces on them, were underdeveloped quite small and skinny and folded in front of as he sat on his bicycle.
What is it like to live your life in this way, on a three wheeled bike hand pedaling around the Klong Toey slum. I want to meet Khune Moo and learn more about his life, does he have a family? how does he earn money? where does he live?
What is it like to live your life in this way, on a three wheeled bike hand pedaling around the Klong Toey slum. I want to meet Khune Moo and learn more about his life, does he have a family? how does he earn money? where does he live?
Khao Pud Moo
About half way through my Klong Toey visit today I walked into an area where men were playing cards and drinking (possibly using drugs). It was an area in the center of some slum shacks and a small one stall restaurant. At first I was a bit worried as two men started coming at me and speaking very fast in Thai, they were both drunk at mid afternoon (about 3pm). After I took a few photos of them (tattoos on their backs) they calmed down a bit we had a nice chat where I explained my history. There were children and one old man of 58 years old (he looked 70)nearby who I also photographed, the old man had haunting eyes, some good photos there I think. I also ordered Khao Pud Moo (fried rice with pork) for 20 baht. The lady who cooked the food was the mother of one of the drunk men (Bun 25 years old). I spent about 1 hour with these people, the old man, the ladies working and sitting in the area, the drunk men and the young children. This place today was a small snippet of life here, a small window into the lives of the people of the Klong Toey slum.
The Khao Pud Moo was delicious!
The Khao Pud Moo was delicious!
Khune Sum R--
Arrived at Klong Toey today around 130pm another late start. I walked in a different direction from the Mercy Centre in search of the Chao Phraya River (never found it). About 10 minutes later I came upon a large old slum house with a man laying down watching TV. I went up to the door said hello and waied the man. I asked permission to take a photo, then asked permission to come into his home. I photographed and talked in the mans house for maybe 30 minutes and learned about the lives of the people who lived there.
The man on the floor was named Sum R--, 55 years old he had 4 children. One of Khune Sum Roo-ai's children was in jail for sniffing glue, he was picked up and the family could not pay the bribe so son was in in jail. I was told the way the bribe system works depends on age, younger children might only pay a 200 baht bribe to the police(100 baht = $3.30 CAD), the older and taller you get the more the bribe costs, 400 baht, 1000 baht, adults pay upwards of 2000 baht. The jail time also depends on your age, sniffing glue/doing drugs might get you 14 days in jail if your a child but 1 year if your an adult (if you do not have the money to pay the bribe to police).
Khune Sum R-- makes his money collecting bottles on his motorbike, he would travel around working for 8 hours or so collecting and make 100 baht or so in profit. I hope the photographs help tell his lifes story.
The man on the floor was named Sum R--, 55 years old he had 4 children. One of Khune Sum Roo-ai's children was in jail for sniffing glue, he was picked up and the family could not pay the bribe so son was in in jail. I was told the way the bribe system works depends on age, younger children might only pay a 200 baht bribe to the police(100 baht = $3.30 CAD), the older and taller you get the more the bribe costs, 400 baht, 1000 baht, adults pay upwards of 2000 baht. The jail time also depends on your age, sniffing glue/doing drugs might get you 14 days in jail if your a child but 1 year if your an adult (if you do not have the money to pay the bribe to police).
Khune Sum R-- makes his money collecting bottles on his motorbike, he would travel around working for 8 hours or so collecting and make 100 baht or so in profit. I hope the photographs help tell his lifes story.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Milk Money?
I met a young girl sitting in a doorway who looked malnourished 2 days back. I spoke to the lady taking care of her and she said her mom had run away (not sure who the lady was a friend? an aunt?), she said she did not have money for food (repeated that several times) when I gave the little girl 40 baht the woman scooped it up quickly (took her about 3 seconds) and said she would buy milk, not sure that's true.
There was also a man at the house who looked like he might be a heavy drinker or drug user. I hope the money does go for milk but I have my doubts. I can still see the little girl with a sort of a hollow face, she did not talk to me (or anyone else)like other children do, just sat in the doorway and quietly stared at me as I made photographs. What will her future hold?
There was also a man at the house who looked like he might be a heavy drinker or drug user. I hope the money does go for milk but I have my doubts. I can still see the little girl with a sort of a hollow face, she did not talk to me (or anyone else)like other children do, just sat in the doorway and quietly stared at me as I made photographs. What will her future hold?
The Kings Birthday
Today was the King of Thailand birthday, he turned 81 today and is in poor health but has lived a long productive life helping the Thai people. The day across Thailand is marked as fathers day out of respect for the King.
Thais are rightfully very proud of their King and whenever I mentioned that it was Wan Po day (Kings birthday-fathers day) to a Thai person they smiled with pride and were happy a farang new what day it was.
To start the day I made a photo of the Mercy Centre front gate which has a large photograph of the King out front. A gate was partially blocking the portrait. When I asked if the gate could be opened to make the picture and that it was important because it was Wan Po day. Security quickly repeated what I had said and opened the gate for me, everyone moved out of the way so I could make the photograph.
Thais are rightfully very proud of their King and whenever I mentioned that it was Wan Po day (Kings birthday-fathers day) to a Thai person they smiled with pride and were happy a farang new what day it was.
To start the day I made a photo of the Mercy Centre front gate which has a large photograph of the King out front. A gate was partially blocking the portrait. When I asked if the gate could be opened to make the picture and that it was important because it was Wan Po day. Security quickly repeated what I had said and opened the gate for me, everyone moved out of the way so I could make the photograph.
Respect for Father Joe
In my 3 trips to Klong Toey I have often heard the name Po Joe mentioned. Father Joseph Maier is highly respected amongst the Thais of Klong Toey that I have met. There is almost a reverential awe, a quietly spoken respect that comes into a Klong Toey residents face when the name Po Joe is spoken. I have not mentioned his name once first but maybe 10 times in the 3 trips Thais spoke his name first. When I tell them I read his book back in Canada and came to Klong Toey because of it to make photographs and to learn about the people of Klong Toey there are smiles all around.
I look at the Mercy Centre, look at the good Father Joe has done for the children and others here and my respect for him grows. I hope I get the chance to meet him, if not this trip then on some future trip to Thailand. What a wonderful way to spend your life, helping and fighting for a better life for others. When Father Joe dies he will have left powerful positive inprint on the life of tens of thousands, including my own life.
This trip has shown me two different types of Thailand farang. In the sex tourist areas of Thailand I think back to a man like Mike who owned two bars including a shortime sex bar (I wrote about him in an earlier blog). Mike is like many farang males who visit Thailand, he lives here for his own selfish pleasure, to be serviced in many different ways, everything is about ME! The opposite kind of farang is like Father Joe or John P who came to Thailand for a different reason, to give and to work for others. They wanted to make a positive difference to the lives of the poor, to work for a greater good, small step by small step. There is no ME first in their philosophy of life.
I look at the Mercy Centre, look at the good Father Joe has done for the children and others here and my respect for him grows. I hope I get the chance to meet him, if not this trip then on some future trip to Thailand. What a wonderful way to spend your life, helping and fighting for a better life for others. When Father Joe dies he will have left powerful positive inprint on the life of tens of thousands, including my own life.
This trip has shown me two different types of Thailand farang. In the sex tourist areas of Thailand I think back to a man like Mike who owned two bars including a shortime sex bar (I wrote about him in an earlier blog). Mike is like many farang males who visit Thailand, he lives here for his own selfish pleasure, to be serviced in many different ways, everything is about ME! The opposite kind of farang is like Father Joe or John P who came to Thailand for a different reason, to give and to work for others. They wanted to make a positive difference to the lives of the poor, to work for a greater good, small step by small step. There is no ME first in their philosophy of life.
You Came Alone?
Whenever I meet and speak to Thais here in Klong Toey or in other parts of Thailand they are surprised I can speak a bit of Thai so I usually go through my whole story, explaining how long I have studied Thai, where I studied Thai, what country I am from, my age, job etc.
A number of times over the last few days (more than 20 times) I have gotten the surprised "FARANG!" called out with people pointing me out to family and friends. It happened today when a young boy called me out to his family. I went down the narrow sidewalk to their slum shack home and waied (Thai customary greeting of placing your hands together and raising them to your face) the grand mom who was sitting there with the rest of her family (daughter, gran daughter, great grandson? and great granddaughter?). They were very nice to me and loved to have photographs made of their youngest child. I made photos of all of them and then talked a bit before saying goodbye, they thanked me for taking their picture!
A bit more worrying question that has been asked 3 or 4 times is "YOU CAME ALONE?" when I say yes the men who asked the question seemed a bit surprised. I know there is danger here in Klong Toey, Father Joe's book warns of some dangers, and Thais I know like Khune Som Jit have warned me of the good and bad in Klong Toey as well. The fact that some Thais are surprised I came alone means that it is not a common thing to have a single farang walking alone in Klong Toey. I am not really that worried for my personal safety as I have always felt safe in Thailand but do worry a bit for my camera's. I carry a Leica M6 with a 28mm F2 with a value of around $4000 USD (some people have asked how expensive my camera is). Today I was carrying the Leica with my 4x5 and 2 lens etc. If I get my cameras stolen I will not be able to make the photographs I want to make and that's my only fear. I think the risk is worth the reward here, to be able to make some important photographs of the lives of people in Klong Toey, to be able to start the Khon Thai project here is well worth any danger my cameras might face!
A number of times over the last few days (more than 20 times) I have gotten the surprised "FARANG!" called out with people pointing me out to family and friends. It happened today when a young boy called me out to his family. I went down the narrow sidewalk to their slum shack home and waied (Thai customary greeting of placing your hands together and raising them to your face) the grand mom who was sitting there with the rest of her family (daughter, gran daughter, great grandson? and great granddaughter?). They were very nice to me and loved to have photographs made of their youngest child. I made photos of all of them and then talked a bit before saying goodbye, they thanked me for taking their picture!
A bit more worrying question that has been asked 3 or 4 times is "YOU CAME ALONE?" when I say yes the men who asked the question seemed a bit surprised. I know there is danger here in Klong Toey, Father Joe's book warns of some dangers, and Thais I know like Khune Som Jit have warned me of the good and bad in Klong Toey as well. The fact that some Thais are surprised I came alone means that it is not a common thing to have a single farang walking alone in Klong Toey. I am not really that worried for my personal safety as I have always felt safe in Thailand but do worry a bit for my camera's. I carry a Leica M6 with a 28mm F2 with a value of around $4000 USD (some people have asked how expensive my camera is). Today I was carrying the Leica with my 4x5 and 2 lens etc. If I get my cameras stolen I will not be able to make the photographs I want to make and that's my only fear. I think the risk is worth the reward here, to be able to make some important photographs of the lives of people in Klong Toey, to be able to start the Khon Thai project here is well worth any danger my cameras might face!
Mouth
I ended my day in Klong Toey shooting 35mm film again, there is such a fluidity to the format that I enjoy shooting it. The picture quality is not on the same level as larger film cameras but the feel and the speed you can shoot at makes up for some of the picture quality negatives.
As 5pm approached and I was about to leave I ended up on a part of the train tracks that I shot the day before. Young children came up and got all excited by me being there again, hamming it up for the camera etc. They even remembered my name, I always tell them that my name is the same name as Jerry in the Tom and Jerry cartoons (I would be the mouse). That always brings a smile to a young Thai persons face and then they usually laugh and repeat the name 2 or 3 times.
The children came up to me again and called out Gerry! I took a few pictures then we had a short English lesson. One of the young boys asked me how to say nose in English(my nose seems to fascinate them because it is bigger and longer than a Thai persons). I started a short English lesson, nose, ear, hair, face, mouth, eye, leg and arm. We went over it a few times, I said the word first and then they (about 8 young boys and girls)repeated it. One young girl was very happy to learn the word mouth, even when I did not ask her to say it she repeated it over and over. "Mouth, Mouth, Mouth" she said it with a big smile and shining eyes and was very happy when I said "dee mak, geng!" (very good, your smart!).
It is very obvious these young minds are searching for knowledge, they want to learn everything including English. The slum schools Father Joe has opened with the help of people like John P and others (around 300 people work at Mercy, paid and volunteers), give these young minds a chance to grow.
I want to process and then send the photographs I made over the last few days back to Mercy, maybe they can give them to the children or use them to raise awareness and to promote donations to the Human Development Foundation/Mercy Centre.
As 5pm approached and I was about to leave I ended up on a part of the train tracks that I shot the day before. Young children came up and got all excited by me being there again, hamming it up for the camera etc. They even remembered my name, I always tell them that my name is the same name as Jerry in the Tom and Jerry cartoons (I would be the mouse). That always brings a smile to a young Thai persons face and then they usually laugh and repeat the name 2 or 3 times.
The children came up to me again and called out Gerry! I took a few pictures then we had a short English lesson. One of the young boys asked me how to say nose in English(my nose seems to fascinate them because it is bigger and longer than a Thai persons). I started a short English lesson, nose, ear, hair, face, mouth, eye, leg and arm. We went over it a few times, I said the word first and then they (about 8 young boys and girls)repeated it. One young girl was very happy to learn the word mouth, even when I did not ask her to say it she repeated it over and over. "Mouth, Mouth, Mouth" she said it with a big smile and shining eyes and was very happy when I said "dee mak, geng!" (very good, your smart!).
It is very obvious these young minds are searching for knowledge, they want to learn everything including English. The slum schools Father Joe has opened with the help of people like John P and others (around 300 people work at Mercy, paid and volunteers), give these young minds a chance to grow.
I want to process and then send the photographs I made over the last few days back to Mercy, maybe they can give them to the children or use them to raise awareness and to promote donations to the Human Development Foundation/Mercy Centre.
4x5 Struggles
I got up late so could only spend about 2 hours maybe 2 and 1/2 in Klong Toey before it got to dark to shoot (about 5pm). I went to bed a bit late last night and then could not sleep for several hours, I kept thinking about my day in Klong Toey.
I started out shooting with the 4x5 and did one portrait, I struggled making the photograph. Jock Sturges fingers, mind and body flow when he has a shoot like this, he does not have to look at the lens, he does everything quickly and with feel and experience from behind the camera. I felt like a bull in a china shop (or at least a stumbling farang). The camera seemed bulky and slow to set up, I was confused by lens choice (75mm or 150mm?) focusing and composing was awkward and slow etc. etc. etc. I guess I should not expect to much because this is basically my first attempt at shooting large format portraits outdoors (did it once in Thailand way back in 1996). I was disappointed with my performance, lots of work needed to improve.
I only have 2 more days to shoot in Klong Toey before I head up North for a week to Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai. I need to shoot quicker and shoot more portraits. I will change off to the 6x9 65mm lens Fuji camera tomorrow and try to be more fluid in my shooting. I am running out of time, I need to work harder and faster to complete the work before I leave Thailand.
I will go back to the 4x5 when I head North. I brought 300 sheets of 4x5 Tri-x, need to get a much of that shot before I leave. The film will be xrayed 5 times before I reach Canada again and I cannot bring it back through those machines again. I need to concetrate to focus and go all out with the 4x5 work when I go up North, by then most of my 35mm and 120mm film will be shot so I will have no other options!
I started out shooting with the 4x5 and did one portrait, I struggled making the photograph. Jock Sturges fingers, mind and body flow when he has a shoot like this, he does not have to look at the lens, he does everything quickly and with feel and experience from behind the camera. I felt like a bull in a china shop (or at least a stumbling farang). The camera seemed bulky and slow to set up, I was confused by lens choice (75mm or 150mm?) focusing and composing was awkward and slow etc. etc. etc. I guess I should not expect to much because this is basically my first attempt at shooting large format portraits outdoors (did it once in Thailand way back in 1996). I was disappointed with my performance, lots of work needed to improve.
I only have 2 more days to shoot in Klong Toey before I head up North for a week to Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai. I need to shoot quicker and shoot more portraits. I will change off to the 6x9 65mm lens Fuji camera tomorrow and try to be more fluid in my shooting. I am running out of time, I need to work harder and faster to complete the work before I leave Thailand.
I will go back to the 4x5 when I head North. I brought 300 sheets of 4x5 Tri-x, need to get a much of that shot before I leave. The film will be xrayed 5 times before I reach Canada again and I cannot bring it back through those machines again. I need to concetrate to focus and go all out with the 4x5 work when I go up North, by then most of my 35mm and 120mm film will be shot so I will have no other options!
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Khune Som Jiit.
Met a man today named Som Jiit, or Khune Som Jiit (Mr. Som Jiit), a remarkable person. I was walking along the tracks between the slum shacks and Som Jiit was fixing his motorbike. Som Jiit has extensive scaring and is missing his upper lip on the left side of his face, probably the result of a fire. I bent down and started talking to him after maybe 10 minutes I asked his permission to take a photograph. He pointed to his face and seemed embarrassed by his scars. I told him what I wanted to photograph was his heart, his goodness and that the scaring was unimportant that it did not hide his true good self (he had been kind to me and warned me of the dangers of Klong Toey). Later on Som Jiit invited me into his home and I made a few photos of his room and of his young daughter and girlfriend. Before I left I asked if he needed money to pay for his the doctor for his daughter who was sick. He told me no that it was ok and he did not need the money as he and his girlfriend both worked. Somjiit drove a motorcycle taxi and his gf worked selling food.
I only talked to him for maybe 40 minutes but Khune Som Jiit struck me as a good decent man, someone who worked hard and loved his family. He also talked to me of "POH JO" (Father Joe of the Mercy Centre), and asked if I knew him. I have not had the honor of meeting Father Joe yet but I did meet another honorable man of Klong Toey today, Khune Som Jiit.
I only talked to him for maybe 40 minutes but Khune Som Jiit struck me as a good decent man, someone who worked hard and loved his family. He also talked to me of "POH JO" (Father Joe of the Mercy Centre), and asked if I knew him. I have not had the honor of meeting Father Joe yet but I did meet another honorable man of Klong Toey today, Khune Som Jiit.
Photo Album
I photographed an old man of 74 today, we talked about his family and his life as I made a few photographs. His room was very small but was newer and had a TV and even a/c (turned off). His girlfriend lived next door and came across the tracks carrying 3 photo albums. I looked through them and saw a small window into this mans life. He had lived in Klong Toey all his life had 2 children, one son and one daughter. The son was a soldier and the daughter graduated from university and was married. He was very proud of his grandson and had dozens of photographs of him in his album. Part way through our photo album talk a train came down the tracks and everyone scattered after the call of "ROT FAI MAR!" rang out (the train is coming!). So there I was at about 330pm looking through a photo album with a 74 year old man in his slum shack as a train passed maybe 3 feet to my left. In Canada at 330pm I am getting up to go to work, here, I am doing this, such a different world I live in here. In a few weeks I will be back in Canada getting up at 330pm to go to work, such a small world.
The Children of Klong Toey Slum
The children of Klong Toey were a joy to be around today. Everywhere I went the waved and came up to me saying "HELLO!" in there school taught English and were delighted when I replied, "hello" back to them. I scared less children today only 1 cried on seeing me! I tried to talk to them at their height (bending or sitting down as I am rather tall at 6 foot 2 inches) and was less intimidating, not a big white skinned monster to them. I spoke softly in Thai and they responded with giggles and questions!! They were playing with my camera, with my flash, asking my name, what was in my pockets, where I came from. Being around children is sort of a new experience for me as I have none of my own. I was a bit uncomfortable at first but how can you be uncomfortable when a 2 young girls of maybe 5 years old come up to you are curious, hold your hand, sit on your leg then grab your nose and tell you how big it is! "Ja-mook Yai!" (big nose). It is joyful to be around Thai children I can still hear them calling out my name as I walked away, a group of 6 young girls and boys standing on the train tracks with their slum houses on each side, yelling "Gerry!"
Truly Amazing Day
Every now and then you have one of those days that are truly memorable, today was one of those days for me.
Met people today that I will remember for years to come, saw things today that will be hard to forget, and felt things today that will live inside me for a long time.
Klong Toey is a place of poverty but also a place filled with kind hearted people who welcome strange farang men with smiles and kindness. I am probably only seeing the surface, the waters run deeper than what I saw today, there is good and bad in all places, in all societies, in all countries. I saw the good of the Klong Toey slumtoday and the good was very good. I was offered food, offered medical cream for my sore leg, offered beer and also offered a warm smile a little talk and a laugh.
Today was the best day I had in Thailand so far this trip. A day like today will be hard to top, when I am back home in Canada I will remember today with a smile.
Met people today that I will remember for years to come, saw things today that will be hard to forget, and felt things today that will live inside me for a long time.
Klong Toey is a place of poverty but also a place filled with kind hearted people who welcome strange farang men with smiles and kindness. I am probably only seeing the surface, the waters run deeper than what I saw today, there is good and bad in all places, in all societies, in all countries. I saw the good of the Klong Toey slumtoday and the good was very good. I was offered food, offered medical cream for my sore leg, offered beer and also offered a warm smile a little talk and a laugh.
Today was the best day I had in Thailand so far this trip. A day like today will be hard to top, when I am back home in Canada I will remember today with a smile.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Baby On The Train Tracks
Photographed a young boy today in a slum shack next to the train tracks. The young boy played at a window as his mother and father worked. Later on when I returned the young boy walked barefoot among the garbage and nails/staples. The mother and father obviously loved their child and watched over him carefully while working.
I have noticed I tend to frighten babies here! I guess it is my size and skin color that does it, most babies start out curious but then that grows into a slight fear which then progresses to tears and crying. Often after a few minutes of having me around the mother has to hug and comfort her baby.
At one point today I was walking down a soi when a women in front of me about 55 years old with big black frame glasses (Buddy Holly like) turned around and started staring at me as we walked. The lady stared while walking for about 15 seconds until at one point she sort of lost her way and bumped into the people walking in front her. The whole thing was rather funny, I guess they do not get that many farang walking around down here. I have had that reaction in more remote areas of Thailand but rarely in Bangkok.
I have noticed I tend to frighten babies here! I guess it is my size and skin color that does it, most babies start out curious but then that grows into a slight fear which then progresses to tears and crying. Often after a few minutes of having me around the mother has to hug and comfort her baby.
At one point today I was walking down a soi when a women in front of me about 55 years old with big black frame glasses (Buddy Holly like) turned around and started staring at me as we walked. The lady stared while walking for about 15 seconds until at one point she sort of lost her way and bumped into the people walking in front her. The whole thing was rather funny, I guess they do not get that many farang walking around down here. I have had that reaction in more remote areas of Thailand but rarely in Bangkok.
Blang's Story
Been thinking these last 2 days of the last girl I photographed using the ring flash and color film. Her name was Blang she was 22 and very pretty. At first Blang was unsure of me but by the time we finished making photos she was happy and comfortable. She told me a story in Thai about a 50 plus year old farang man who had been a customer, how he did not want to wear a condom, how he had hurt her during sex. I can see here eyes and face now as I type, I wonder what her future holds for her. The same night I photographed ladies who had been working as sex workers with farang for upwards of 20 years, even 30 years. I wonder now if Blang will be doing the same work in 30 years?
I wish I was more fluent in Thai I can understand more now than at during any previous time in Thailand but still feel like I have so much to learn. I want to be completely fluent so I can learn and understand people here better. I need to understand exactly what they are telling me and to then translate that feeling, that knowledge into my photographs.
I wish I was more fluent in Thai I can understand more now than at during any previous time in Thailand but still feel like I have so much to learn. I want to be completely fluent so I can learn and understand people here better. I need to understand exactly what they are telling me and to then translate that feeling, that knowledge into my photographs.
Back In Klong Toey
Had a late start again, got to get up earlier! I ended up getting to Klong Toey and visiting the Mercy Centre for the first time today. The Mercy Centre is a facility and outreach program that was started in the 1973 by Father Joseph Maier and Sister Maria Chantavarodom. I was given a short tour by Father Joe's right hand man Mr. John P.
http://www.mercycentre.org
After the visit to the centre I walked around the Klong Toey area. I photographed the railroad tracks where they have furniture making shacks. The workers work on a train track and then sell the products they make (tables, chairs, dog houses etc.). Much of the wood used is from old wood pallets that are re cut and then reused. The quality was surprisingly good, the tables and chairs well made and after they are finished and painted up, quite attractive. The main work area is on the train tracks so upwards of 10 times of day everyone has to remove all their equipment and whatever they are working on before the train crushes it.
Meeting the people on the streets, in their homes and along the railway tracks was a positive experience, a good learning experience. Often the poorest people have the kindest most friendliest hearts. Today when I was walking the soi's (road) of Klong Toey I kept thinking how the camera around my neck was probably worth more than many people around me earned in 2 or 3 years.
The longer I stay in Thailand the easier it gets for me and the better the photographs are. Unfortunately I only have about 17 more days in Thailand so I have to try to make the most of the time I have. I am unsure if I will return tomorrow and shoot more 35mm or take out the 4x5 for the first time, either way it should be FUN!!!
http://www.mercycentre.org
After the visit to the centre I walked around the Klong Toey area. I photographed the railroad tracks where they have furniture making shacks. The workers work on a train track and then sell the products they make (tables, chairs, dog houses etc.). Much of the wood used is from old wood pallets that are re cut and then reused. The quality was surprisingly good, the tables and chairs well made and after they are finished and painted up, quite attractive. The main work area is on the train tracks so upwards of 10 times of day everyone has to remove all their equipment and whatever they are working on before the train crushes it.
Meeting the people on the streets, in their homes and along the railway tracks was a positive experience, a good learning experience. Often the poorest people have the kindest most friendliest hearts. Today when I was walking the soi's (road) of Klong Toey I kept thinking how the camera around my neck was probably worth more than many people around me earned in 2 or 3 years.
The longer I stay in Thailand the easier it gets for me and the better the photographs are. Unfortunately I only have about 17 more days in Thailand so I have to try to make the most of the time I have. I am unsure if I will return tomorrow and shoot more 35mm or take out the 4x5 for the first time, either way it should be FUN!!!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
African Sex Workers
There is a growing trend of African sex workers in Thailand. Last year on Sukhumvit road in Bangkok I noticed maybe 4 or 6 such workers, last night there were well over 20 maybe 30 African working girls. Two different ladies grabbed my hand and pulled me toward them to talk, they spoke very clear English and both were from Kenya. I liked both ladies and had friendly talks with both, I wished them good luck and moved on. One lady who I talked to was named Ousha and was about 30 years old and quite pretty and polite she said she also had a friend from Uganda who worked the street. There are also many Russians working the street areas, is Bangkok becoming an international market for sex workers? I wonder what Sukhumvit street will be like in 10 years? Who will be working there? and from which countries?
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Crazy Day
Had a busy busy day today. The day started out with 2 no shows for shoots. I was hoping to finish the ringflash color work in the morning but 3 ladyboys who were supposed to come for photographs before my 12pm checkout time did not show. I walked the beach and made a few photographs. I then discovered the flash hotshoe from my Hasselblad XPAN was GONE! How the hell do you lose a hotshoe? Of all the cameras I have ever owned (dozens of cameras) I have never lost a hotshoe, guess there is a first time for everything. I bought the camera second hand on Ebay it must been damaged by the previous owner. When I returned to Bangkok later in the day I had to do a emergency run to the shop that got me the adaptor ring for my other Hasselblad. The owner doubted he could get me an XPAN hotshoe but will try to adapt another hotshoe to work. If the hotshoe does not work I will have to sinc the flash using a sync cord. A repair in Canada would probably cost over $150, here in Bangkok it might cost $33 or less. I left the camera with the store and will hear back from him in the next 2 days.
Later that evening I returned to Sukhumvit road the place I made most of my 1999 street photographs. It was sort of nostalgic in a weird sort of way. I even met a American man (H) I knew from that period a man I had not met in at least 5 years. I stumbled onto to him in the parking lot of a hotel he frequents and without batting and eye it took him about 2 seconds after seeing me to say "Hi Gerry, how you been?" Was nice to talk to him, he had recently had some health issues and seemed quite humble and relaxed. We had a nice 45 minute conversation I even talked to him about having a long term relationship and he said that it would be the ideal situation. We all need love, someone to trust and someone who worry and take care of us. Even men who had sex with thousands of women have the the need to find a girl that will love them and be with them full time. H talked to me of a 67 year old man who was in longterm with a 24 year old Thai lady and seemed quite envious. I think I stereotype people at times and sexpats who engage in sex with countless women are easy to judge in a negative way. Now that I have known several hardcore sexpats for 10 years plus I can see a bit of their own humanity, see a bit clearer their need for love and companionship. Talking to these fellows now after 10 years I can understand their loneliness a bit, and see them as more of a shade of grey than in simple black and white terms. Before I saw them wearing a black hat and now see them as wearing a blackish grey hat. I am not sure that is much of an improvement but heck it does make them more human and more real. I think I might like to try do some white background portraits of these fellows at some future date if they will allow me to photograph them.
I ended up photographing 5 ladies tonight to make up four the 3 ladyboys missed earlier in the day. I photographed 3 older ladies early in the evening before my talk with H and 2 later in the evening after midnight. I am finished doing the ringflash color stuff (did about 25 photo sessions) and am happy that this part of the photographs is done. I think I made some good photos especially at the beginning of the night when I did the first 3 who were all older 44 to 57 years old. One of the ladies Mai was quite angry at the beginning of the session and was difficult to handle but I tried to be as polite as I could and treated here with respect using the Thai words for politeness as often as I could. I do not blame here for being angry toward a farang she did not know, being 57 and working as a sex worker is not easy, her life must be filled with sadness. I hope I can get to know her better and at some future date and make more portraits of her. When I left her both her and Pun another lady I photographed waved goodbye to me with a smile.
I spoke a ton of Thai today my fear of the language has vanished and I jumped in speaking at any opportunity. I even learned all about my taxi drivers life on the way to my room after the days shooting. I also played my first Thai chess on the street in several years, it was fun and I was competitive until the end game when the Thai man I was playing (he the help of his 2 friends) got a slight advantage and won with some difficulty. They asked me to return to play them again the next day, it was lots of fun to joke with them and to smash the pieces down on the wooden board while saying ROOK (check).
The thing I need to do now that the sex worker photos are done with is to photograph people on the street with the same ease. I need to move outside that comfort zone I talked about before and create photographs in a new form. Damn I wish I had more time, I have only about 18 days, 17 actually as it is 620am and I exhausted. Tomorrow will probably be a non day as I need to load film and unpack from my trip South.
It was a fun day, hard day, unlucky day and lucky day but need to move on to better photographs. I am excited by the possibilities.
Later that evening I returned to Sukhumvit road the place I made most of my 1999 street photographs. It was sort of nostalgic in a weird sort of way. I even met a American man (H) I knew from that period a man I had not met in at least 5 years. I stumbled onto to him in the parking lot of a hotel he frequents and without batting and eye it took him about 2 seconds after seeing me to say "Hi Gerry, how you been?" Was nice to talk to him, he had recently had some health issues and seemed quite humble and relaxed. We had a nice 45 minute conversation I even talked to him about having a long term relationship and he said that it would be the ideal situation. We all need love, someone to trust and someone who worry and take care of us. Even men who had sex with thousands of women have the the need to find a girl that will love them and be with them full time. H talked to me of a 67 year old man who was in longterm with a 24 year old Thai lady and seemed quite envious. I think I stereotype people at times and sexpats who engage in sex with countless women are easy to judge in a negative way. Now that I have known several hardcore sexpats for 10 years plus I can see a bit of their own humanity, see a bit clearer their need for love and companionship. Talking to these fellows now after 10 years I can understand their loneliness a bit, and see them as more of a shade of grey than in simple black and white terms. Before I saw them wearing a black hat and now see them as wearing a blackish grey hat. I am not sure that is much of an improvement but heck it does make them more human and more real. I think I might like to try do some white background portraits of these fellows at some future date if they will allow me to photograph them.
I ended up photographing 5 ladies tonight to make up four the 3 ladyboys missed earlier in the day. I photographed 3 older ladies early in the evening before my talk with H and 2 later in the evening after midnight. I am finished doing the ringflash color stuff (did about 25 photo sessions) and am happy that this part of the photographs is done. I think I made some good photos especially at the beginning of the night when I did the first 3 who were all older 44 to 57 years old. One of the ladies Mai was quite angry at the beginning of the session and was difficult to handle but I tried to be as polite as I could and treated here with respect using the Thai words for politeness as often as I could. I do not blame here for being angry toward a farang she did not know, being 57 and working as a sex worker is not easy, her life must be filled with sadness. I hope I can get to know her better and at some future date and make more portraits of her. When I left her both her and Pun another lady I photographed waved goodbye to me with a smile.
I spoke a ton of Thai today my fear of the language has vanished and I jumped in speaking at any opportunity. I even learned all about my taxi drivers life on the way to my room after the days shooting. I also played my first Thai chess on the street in several years, it was fun and I was competitive until the end game when the Thai man I was playing (he the help of his 2 friends) got a slight advantage and won with some difficulty. They asked me to return to play them again the next day, it was lots of fun to joke with them and to smash the pieces down on the wooden board while saying ROOK (check).
The thing I need to do now that the sex worker photos are done with is to photograph people on the street with the same ease. I need to move outside that comfort zone I talked about before and create photographs in a new form. Damn I wish I had more time, I have only about 18 days, 17 actually as it is 620am and I exhausted. Tomorrow will probably be a non day as I need to load film and unpack from my trip South.
It was a fun day, hard day, unlucky day and lucky day but need to move on to better photographs. I am excited by the possibilities.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Two Peoples?
I have noticed more then ever how there seem to be two distinct worlds in the bar areas. There is the Thai world and the farang world. Many farang hang out in groups and seem oblivious to the Thai world around them. I met a farang on the beach the other day who told me he had lived in Thailand for the last 5 years but did eat Thai food only farang food. How the hell do you live in Thailand and not eat Thai food? This same man had an eye for the girls as we talked, I sort of felt like I was observing a different world than his because right in the middle of our conversation he would become distracted and start commenting on some Thai girl near by (legs, face, breasts). Here was a guy maybe 20 years older than me who basically had his tongue hanging out as the girl passed, I had not even noticed her. I talked to two other older farang the same day and had the same experience. Many times I also noticed an anti women and anti Thai sentiment. I have never been able to understand why people so critical of Thailand, live in Thailand.
Desperate People
Many of the girls and ladyboys working the bars are desperate for customers. I have heard a dozen times how they have not had a customer all week. I have photographed several older workers this trip (the youngest lady I photographed this trip is 25 the oldes 60+), the older workers seem especially desperate. I went out for food at a restaurant not far from my hotel today that had bargirls as waitresses. The women in the bar were over 40 but still tried to dress young and sexy. I wondered how many hours these older ladies had to sit in the bar waiting for a customer, waiting for someone to notice them. Most bars have quotas and if a girl gets to old and does not have enough customers a month she will lose her job and have to find another way to make money (many become freelance worker).
Heading to Bangkok Soon
Heading back to Bangkok tomorrow. I have shot 11 people over the last 2 days and have another 3 to do before I check out tomorrow at 12 noon. I am a bit worn down by this type of shooting to much like working a job. I want to get back on the streets and into Klong Toey meeting real people and shooting a bit of their lives with the 35mm cameras and also want to get out the 4x5 and shoot that some.
I am happy I have got these color ring flash shots done as a backup to the coming show, I think I shot several strong photographs but its a bit of been there done that. Someone once told me I am in my comfort zone when it comes to these photographs. I think the comfort zone comment is right on the mark, I need to step out of that zone and force myself to work in a new direction and in new ways.
Going to rest up a bit tonight, go have a foot massage and a nice meal, then to sleep and 3 more shoots tomorrow. I still have time to do more straight documentary work and if I need to I will return to Thai before the show to continue this work. I will put the sex worker photographs behind me for a while maybe for a few years. I might like to try some more white background 8x10 stuff but not for at least a year or 2.
Seeing lots here and meeting interesting folk. I met a farang man about 50 who has lived here for 7 years. He owns two bars a short time sex bar (with pretty girls and shortime rooms on the premises) and a friendly beer bar for regulars where the girls are older and do not push the customers to buy lady drinks. This fellow Mike has daily massages, gets a daily shave for about $2.25 and gets serviced in other ways as needed. Mike seemed very happy but it seemed somehow to be an empty life, a life of having others serve you and a life of leisure. Where are the goals? What will you leave behind? Life should be more than seeking your own pleasure, it should be about helping those around you and contributing something positive to society.
I am happy I have got these color ring flash shots done as a backup to the coming show, I think I shot several strong photographs but its a bit of been there done that. Someone once told me I am in my comfort zone when it comes to these photographs. I think the comfort zone comment is right on the mark, I need to step out of that zone and force myself to work in a new direction and in new ways.
Going to rest up a bit tonight, go have a foot massage and a nice meal, then to sleep and 3 more shoots tomorrow. I still have time to do more straight documentary work and if I need to I will return to Thai before the show to continue this work. I will put the sex worker photographs behind me for a while maybe for a few years. I might like to try some more white background 8x10 stuff but not for at least a year or 2.
Seeing lots here and meeting interesting folk. I met a farang man about 50 who has lived here for 7 years. He owns two bars a short time sex bar (with pretty girls and shortime rooms on the premises) and a friendly beer bar for regulars where the girls are older and do not push the customers to buy lady drinks. This fellow Mike has daily massages, gets a daily shave for about $2.25 and gets serviced in other ways as needed. Mike seemed very happy but it seemed somehow to be an empty life, a life of having others serve you and a life of leisure. Where are the goals? What will you leave behind? Life should be more than seeking your own pleasure, it should be about helping those around you and contributing something positive to society.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Nid
Photographed Nid today for the 5th or 6th time since 2003. I met her back in 2003 when I first started the bargirl photo series. She is still working in the shortime bars 7 years later. Today she told me of a bf she has back home in Korat, I like Nid, she has kind heart, she laughed a lot during the photo session, I hope it adds another type photo to the series, a photo showing a bit of joy. Most of my Thai sex worker pictures are rather grim but life is broader than that and including a laughing photograph might be a good thing. Jock Sturges is right about photographing people multiple times. I had not seen Nid for 1 year and 6 months but it was sort of like we were long lost friends, the photos were fun and easy to take.
I also met some motorcycle taxi guys playing macrook (Thai chess). After a few sentences of Thai we were fast friends. I was offered a chair and everyone was eager to play and talk to me. Thais tend to be like that, the "Land of Smiles" advertisement is not far off the mark, and is actually quite accurate. I have grown to love this country and the people here. The language stuff has improved and I feel confident again to speak to people and to try to understand more about Thai culture. I need to work harder in Canada on my Thai language skills.
I should be finished here in about 4 days. I have enough film to photograph about 12 more people and have 4 scheduled for tomorrow with another 5 or so lined up. I want to save some film to shoot the older Nid in Bangkok when I return then I have to rush back to Klong Toey to work on some documentary 35mm shots of the slum. I have shot almost no 4x5 film I need to get my ass in gear in that direction as well. I think I can shoot the 4x5 and do outdoor portraits now, I do not feel like an outsider here anymore.
I also met some motorcycle taxi guys playing macrook (Thai chess). After a few sentences of Thai we were fast friends. I was offered a chair and everyone was eager to play and talk to me. Thais tend to be like that, the "Land of Smiles" advertisement is not far off the mark, and is actually quite accurate. I have grown to love this country and the people here. The language stuff has improved and I feel confident again to speak to people and to try to understand more about Thai culture. I need to work harder in Canada on my Thai language skills.
I should be finished here in about 4 days. I have enough film to photograph about 12 more people and have 4 scheduled for tomorrow with another 5 or so lined up. I want to save some film to shoot the older Nid in Bangkok when I return then I have to rush back to Klong Toey to work on some documentary 35mm shots of the slum. I have shot almost no 4x5 film I need to get my ass in gear in that direction as well. I think I can shoot the 4x5 and do outdoor portraits now, I do not feel like an outsider here anymore.
Friday, November 26, 2010
Todays Work
Been working hard at getting the ringflash headshots done so I can start work on the 4x5 environmental Khon Thai portraits. I have shot about 1/2 the 220 Portra film I brought with me and want to complete that before I move onto the next stage of photographs.
I ended up shooting 6 ladyboy sex workers today which sort of wore me out. My eyes got tired of focusing the blad/ringflash combination. I had one film jam that prevented me from shooting more in one session. I also seem to be having some film advance problems. I hope I am not getting any double exposures. The good technical news is I was able to get a adaptor ring for the ringflash/blad so I do not have to tape the ring flash to the lens any longer (darn thing get falling off and going sideways).
The ladyboys I shot today had either pleasant or difficult personalities. Some that I shot got into it, laughed and try to collaborate in the photo sessions, others were tired or angry types that were hard to work with. I wanted the photographs to accurately depict who they were as people. I might end up using 5 or even 10 portraits from these sessions in the May group show I am involved in. I have photographed 12 people so far (9 ladyboys) and will probably photograph another 12-16. I have 2 older ladies scheduled for tomorrow at 2pm.
Got go go eat some pizza and relax my eyes a bit, then there is some kind of full moon party that I want to check out.
I ended up shooting 6 ladyboy sex workers today which sort of wore me out. My eyes got tired of focusing the blad/ringflash combination. I had one film jam that prevented me from shooting more in one session. I also seem to be having some film advance problems. I hope I am not getting any double exposures. The good technical news is I was able to get a adaptor ring for the ringflash/blad so I do not have to tape the ring flash to the lens any longer (darn thing get falling off and going sideways).
The ladyboys I shot today had either pleasant or difficult personalities. Some that I shot got into it, laughed and try to collaborate in the photo sessions, others were tired or angry types that were hard to work with. I wanted the photographs to accurately depict who they were as people. I might end up using 5 or even 10 portraits from these sessions in the May group show I am involved in. I have photographed 12 people so far (9 ladyboys) and will probably photograph another 12-16. I have 2 older ladies scheduled for tomorrow at 2pm.
Got go go eat some pizza and relax my eyes a bit, then there is some kind of full moon party that I want to check out.
Overheard On The Street
"Hello, I want to eat your hotdog"
Ladyboy Sex Worker
"A long term relationship for me is if the girl stays overnight."
DJ longtime Sex Pat
"His life is fulltime boom boom, he's happy."
H sexpat talking about another sexpat
"You don't understand, you're the one I love"
Old farang man speaking to young female bar worker (she had a I don't beleive you look on her face}
"I would rather pay 2000 baht for no condom than 1000 baht for condom."
I-----, long time sexpat who has lived in the Philippines and Thailand for over 20 years buying sex from sex workers.
Ladyboy Sex Worker
"A long term relationship for me is if the girl stays overnight."
DJ longtime Sex Pat
"His life is fulltime boom boom, he's happy."
H sexpat talking about another sexpat
"You don't understand, you're the one I love"
Old farang man speaking to young female bar worker (she had a I don't beleive you look on her face}
"I would rather pay 2000 baht for no condom than 1000 baht for condom."
I-----, long time sexpat who has lived in the Philippines and Thailand for over 20 years buying sex from sex workers.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
First Color Ring Flash Heads
Did my first color ring flash head shots today of 2 ladies who worked freelance, one was 57 and one 60 but they looked older. I shot them in my room against blue and green backgrounds, think I might have got some good photos today. I also made appointments to shoot 1 lady tomorrow at 4pm and my first two LBs at 1030 pm. I am trying to be more selective in who I shoot, trying to find visually strong people to photograph.
I think the film will go fast, I have 60 rolls of 220 Portra to use up in the next week to 10 days. I hope to get out of here in 1 week but we will see. I also shot a single roll of 35 panoramic and 1 roll of 6x9 120 Tri-x with the 2 ladies today.
Got here around 4 pm and went for a walk met some Thais on the street selling various things, I want to photograph them with the 4x5 or with the 6x9 and flash. I need to get up my nerve to carry the larger camera with tripod on the street here. The whole thing sort of becomes a spectacle and attracts lots of attention, something I am not fond of. I think thou it should be ok because I will be photographing Thai people only and people working regular jobs (not sex workers).
I met one girl from last year who remembered my name, not bad for 1 year and 6 months! I said hi to her and called her by name and there was a delay about 5 seconds before she said, "Gerry?" Then a big hug and a nice little talk, might try and photograph her again this trip. I also met 4 ladyboys today who I have known for a while, one who I had not seen since 2003 remembered me as well. I will try to photograph as many ladyboys as I can this trip, because they are so visually strong and also because I hope to learn and understand more about their lives. Every time I have a conversation with a Thai person I learn a bit more and understand a bit more so it is sort of a progressive learning thing. Learn more language equals learn more culture equals learn more about the people equals better photographs.
The Thai came a bit hard today, kept flubbing words and searching for them. Today I spoke more Thai than anytime in the last 1 year 6 months, and my brain and mouth hurt. I usually become fast friends with whoever I talk to and rarely have a negative experience. People are so friendly in Thailand even those who have seen the worst kind of farang.
Today when I was walking home to the hotel from the 7/11 with some supplies I stopped to watch TV from the street at a bar. Above me drinking were some German men and 2 Thai bar workers. One German man was very drunk and kept pawing the Thai lady who was working with him, she was maybe 35 years his junior. At one point the farang put his face down into her breasts and started kissing, talking and rubbing, the poor Thai girl (maybe 20 years old) was so embarrassed and uncomfortable, was sad to see it. In Thai culture holding hands in public is done rarely if at all, mostly by young people in shopping malls, sometimes on the street. Hugging, kissing and public affection is almost never seen, the rules in the bar areas are different thou and she cannot complain, she just must try to laugh it off and get him to stop. What always surprises me is how blind the farang man is in this situation, can he not see how disgusted the girl is with him when he acts this way? It is like the guy is blind and does not see what is inches in front of him. I was several feet away and could feel how repulsed she was by his behaviour. Maybe the guy just does not give a shit, for him the girl is bought and paid for her and he has the right to do what he wants. I can still see her eyes when the guys head was in her breasts.
Ugly place going to make my photos then got out of here.
I think the film will go fast, I have 60 rolls of 220 Portra to use up in the next week to 10 days. I hope to get out of here in 1 week but we will see. I also shot a single roll of 35 panoramic and 1 roll of 6x9 120 Tri-x with the 2 ladies today.
Got here around 4 pm and went for a walk met some Thais on the street selling various things, I want to photograph them with the 4x5 or with the 6x9 and flash. I need to get up my nerve to carry the larger camera with tripod on the street here. The whole thing sort of becomes a spectacle and attracts lots of attention, something I am not fond of. I think thou it should be ok because I will be photographing Thai people only and people working regular jobs (not sex workers).
I met one girl from last year who remembered my name, not bad for 1 year and 6 months! I said hi to her and called her by name and there was a delay about 5 seconds before she said, "Gerry?" Then a big hug and a nice little talk, might try and photograph her again this trip. I also met 4 ladyboys today who I have known for a while, one who I had not seen since 2003 remembered me as well. I will try to photograph as many ladyboys as I can this trip, because they are so visually strong and also because I hope to learn and understand more about their lives. Every time I have a conversation with a Thai person I learn a bit more and understand a bit more so it is sort of a progressive learning thing. Learn more language equals learn more culture equals learn more about the people equals better photographs.
The Thai came a bit hard today, kept flubbing words and searching for them. Today I spoke more Thai than anytime in the last 1 year 6 months, and my brain and mouth hurt. I usually become fast friends with whoever I talk to and rarely have a negative experience. People are so friendly in Thailand even those who have seen the worst kind of farang.
Today when I was walking home to the hotel from the 7/11 with some supplies I stopped to watch TV from the street at a bar. Above me drinking were some German men and 2 Thai bar workers. One German man was very drunk and kept pawing the Thai lady who was working with him, she was maybe 35 years his junior. At one point the farang put his face down into her breasts and started kissing, talking and rubbing, the poor Thai girl (maybe 20 years old) was so embarrassed and uncomfortable, was sad to see it. In Thai culture holding hands in public is done rarely if at all, mostly by young people in shopping malls, sometimes on the street. Hugging, kissing and public affection is almost never seen, the rules in the bar areas are different thou and she cannot complain, she just must try to laugh it off and get him to stop. What always surprises me is how blind the farang man is in this situation, can he not see how disgusted the girl is with him when he acts this way? It is like the guy is blind and does not see what is inches in front of him. I was several feet away and could feel how repulsed she was by his behaviour. Maybe the guy just does not give a shit, for him the girl is bought and paid for her and he has the right to do what he wants. I can still see her eyes when the guys head was in her breasts.
Ugly place going to make my photos then got out of here.
Monday, November 22, 2010
No Photos Today, But!
Bad day photo wise, spent most of my time trying to track down a adaptor ring for my Hasselblad ring flash. I could not find anything in Bangkok and it looks like I will have to duct tape my ring flash to the blad lens! Not sure how successful this set up will be but I have no other options. I have to try to make photos with a duct taped ring flash. Last year when I did the white background images I did it with a badly cracked/broken ground glass that I had to tape and glue together. This years challence will be making photographs with the ring flash coming off and going off centre.
I delayed my arrival in Pattaya a day without a penalty at the hotel so am off from Bangkok tomorrow at 6am. I did have a rather unique experience today. I went to a Thai massage school and had a free oil massage for 1 hour and a half. The massage was given to me by 1 sometimes 2 and for about 15 minutes 3 ladies! The atudents are learning Thai massage and they need people to practise on, especially big farang like me. I am a bit shy when it comes to things like this but heck I had to overcome it for the good of others. Goodhearted of me don't you think? : )
I delayed my arrival in Pattaya a day without a penalty at the hotel so am off from Bangkok tomorrow at 6am. I did have a rather unique experience today. I went to a Thai massage school and had a free oil massage for 1 hour and a half. The massage was given to me by 1 sometimes 2 and for about 15 minutes 3 ladies! The atudents are learning Thai massage and they need people to practise on, especially big farang like me. I am a bit shy when it comes to things like this but heck I had to overcome it for the good of others. Goodhearted of me don't you think? : )
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Great Day
Had a great day in Bangkok today kind of surprising considering how late it got started. At around 2pm got out on the street and headed out to get a bite, ended up having pork cutlet Hungarian style (gravy and mushrooms) along with a milk ice tea for $5. I then took a taxi down to the Klong Toey market. I visited the market two days ago so this trip was not as intimidating. I got up close with people talking and making photographs. After the market I wandered into a more residential area and made some photographs of children and people living their daily lives. I think the best images of the bunch are some made of families who were living in slum shacks in a truck repair yards. I photographed a man repairing a large tire as well as a group of men playing dra-groh(foot volleyball). Even photographed some cats playing and rolling around in the waterish oil covered ground.
It is strange how the poorest of the poor are usually the nicest folks where as the rich people can often be snobbish and selfish. I met some wonderful people today, even had a girl shyly ask if I had a girlfriend or not. The children here are really adorable and friendly, had four come up to me and get all excited when I spoke to them in Thai and took photos. There is so much potential in the children but they are so poor, what futures will they have?
I met some wonderful people today in Klong Toey, but I think I have not seen the poorest areas, the areas I have read about. Father Joe Maier is right, this is the real Thailand and these are the real people of Thailand.
Today was my 3rd day in Thailand and the first I felt comfortable speaking Thai and interacting with locals. I felt like less of an outsider today, more comfortable, more at peace with what I was doing. Thai people are so outgoing and friendly and today I was able to see that first hand and not be intimidated making photographs in that environment. I shot with a Leica M6 and 28mm lens and also a Hasselblad Xpan with 45mm lens.
Today was the first day that I felt ( have not tried it yet!) I could make photos with my 4x5 camera. The 4x5 is an entirely new way to shoot for me, I have shot it in the studio but not in public, today I felt "hey I can do this, I can make the 4x5 work in public place" Will have to see how it goes but love shooting the 35mm cameras (maybe shooting to much film to fast), hopefully can shoot the 4x5 as enthusiastically.
In the evening I went to the Golden Mountain Temple for the loy khratong festival. The temple was filled with thousands of Thais, ended up spending about 2 hours there and only saw 3 other farang (Westerners) the whole time, sort of an oddity for Bangkok. The temple was quite beautiful sort of like a old time country temple with fire works and loy comb (floating candle lights, that rise into the sky). At the end of the evening you could see many loy khratong (floating banana leaf boats with lighted candles and incense) floating down the canals next to the temple.
A great day with hopefully more to come. Tomorrow I head to Pattaya to make some color ring flash heads and environmental portraits. Pattaya will be a different world than I visited today, a world of drunken farang of prostitution and sex.
It is strange how the poorest of the poor are usually the nicest folks where as the rich people can often be snobbish and selfish. I met some wonderful people today, even had a girl shyly ask if I had a girlfriend or not. The children here are really adorable and friendly, had four come up to me and get all excited when I spoke to them in Thai and took photos. There is so much potential in the children but they are so poor, what futures will they have?
I met some wonderful people today in Klong Toey, but I think I have not seen the poorest areas, the areas I have read about. Father Joe Maier is right, this is the real Thailand and these are the real people of Thailand.
Today was my 3rd day in Thailand and the first I felt comfortable speaking Thai and interacting with locals. I felt like less of an outsider today, more comfortable, more at peace with what I was doing. Thai people are so outgoing and friendly and today I was able to see that first hand and not be intimidated making photographs in that environment. I shot with a Leica M6 and 28mm lens and also a Hasselblad Xpan with 45mm lens.
Today was the first day that I felt ( have not tried it yet!) I could make photos with my 4x5 camera. The 4x5 is an entirely new way to shoot for me, I have shot it in the studio but not in public, today I felt "hey I can do this, I can make the 4x5 work in public place" Will have to see how it goes but love shooting the 35mm cameras (maybe shooting to much film to fast), hopefully can shoot the 4x5 as enthusiastically.
In the evening I went to the Golden Mountain Temple for the loy khratong festival. The temple was filled with thousands of Thais, ended up spending about 2 hours there and only saw 3 other farang (Westerners) the whole time, sort of an oddity for Bangkok. The temple was quite beautiful sort of like a old time country temple with fire works and loy comb (floating candle lights, that rise into the sky). At the end of the evening you could see many loy khratong (floating banana leaf boats with lighted candles and incense) floating down the canals next to the temple.
A great day with hopefully more to come. Tomorrow I head to Pattaya to make some color ring flash heads and environmental portraits. Pattaya will be a different world than I visited today, a world of drunken farang of prostitution and sex.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Meeting Some Men
Met 2 men last night, 1 Thai and 1 Farang (Western). The farang man I have known since 1999 the Thai man I just met yesterday while photographing at his shop in the Klong Toey slum area.
First the farang, he has been a Sex Pat in Bangkok since I have known him. He enjoys his life in the bargirl worlds of Thailand and before that the Philippines. I guess during the recent political problems in Thailand where around 80 people died this farang man had it pretty good. Because of the curfew put in place by gov't the women who came into the hotel he stays at were unable to leave after 11pm, they were locked inside until 6am giving him his choice of partners, the hotel also was at 20% capacity with army folk in the parking lot which made it a buyers market so to speak.
The second man told me a story of how he had multiple gfs, the man was about 65 and fairly successful financially. I guess he had 5 women around town that he was seeing.
Heard a story of a farang here who would take 10 lady bar workers to his room and spend upwards of $1000 a day on sex.
Need to get into the real Thai world more, this bar sex stuff gets tiring quickly. Want to make real photos of real people living real lives.
Welcome to Bangkok! Mr Gerry.
First the farang, he has been a Sex Pat in Bangkok since I have known him. He enjoys his life in the bargirl worlds of Thailand and before that the Philippines. I guess during the recent political problems in Thailand where around 80 people died this farang man had it pretty good. Because of the curfew put in place by gov't the women who came into the hotel he stays at were unable to leave after 11pm, they were locked inside until 6am giving him his choice of partners, the hotel also was at 20% capacity with army folk in the parking lot which made it a buyers market so to speak.
The second man told me a story of how he had multiple gfs, the man was about 65 and fairly successful financially. I guess he had 5 women around town that he was seeing.
Heard a story of a farang here who would take 10 lady bar workers to his room and spend upwards of $1000 a day on sex.
Need to get into the real Thai world more, this bar sex stuff gets tiring quickly. Want to make real photos of real people living real lives.
Welcome to Bangkok! Mr Gerry.
First Days in Thai
Funny how close the world is now. I was in Canada a few days ago working. Today I am on the back of a motorcycle taxi weaving through traffic in Bangkok, we were cutting by the parked traffic jammed cars coming so close my legs were touching car doors.
The noise here is deafening, my head is spinning from the combination noise and heat. I was at Klong Toey slum today photographing various people working, a sewing shop and used metal chain/wire shop. They were cutting (with a fire torch of some kind) apart pieces of metal on the street without safety gear of any kind not even gloves, thou one guy did have sort of work shoes on.
Spoke some Thai today felt funny doing that again, at times struggling for the words but for the most part people understood what I was saying. I also went to a market in the slum, live ducks, chickens and fish etc. Surprised some Thais a couple of times, they turned around and saw me and drew back in surprise! Joked with them that they had never seen a farang (westerner) before, kind of funny to see the way they reacted. One lady after being shocked, told me she was not afraid of farang who could speak Thai but was afraid of those who could not speak Thai. Fun to be in this world again, might take a week to get things working in the right direction.
So far have eaten, oysters, fried fish, large prawns, crab, sour squid soup, dom yum bla (spicy fish soup), som tam (papaya salad) and a wonderful street desert with black beans and coconut milk. I also just had some nice durian which is a Chinese fruit that sort of smells but is delicious.
Am still overcoming my jet lag will try to get my 4x5 our on the streets in the next few days, today shot a Leica M6 and 28mm lens and also with a Xpan panoramic with 45mm. Fun to shoot 35mm Trix again but need to shoot some larger formats as well for better image quality. Tomorrow I will take the blad out of the shipping foam and shoot some color heads with the ring flash.
The noise here is deafening, my head is spinning from the combination noise and heat. I was at Klong Toey slum today photographing various people working, a sewing shop and used metal chain/wire shop. They were cutting (with a fire torch of some kind) apart pieces of metal on the street without safety gear of any kind not even gloves, thou one guy did have sort of work shoes on.
Spoke some Thai today felt funny doing that again, at times struggling for the words but for the most part people understood what I was saying. I also went to a market in the slum, live ducks, chickens and fish etc. Surprised some Thais a couple of times, they turned around and saw me and drew back in surprise! Joked with them that they had never seen a farang (westerner) before, kind of funny to see the way they reacted. One lady after being shocked, told me she was not afraid of farang who could speak Thai but was afraid of those who could not speak Thai. Fun to be in this world again, might take a week to get things working in the right direction.
So far have eaten, oysters, fried fish, large prawns, crab, sour squid soup, dom yum bla (spicy fish soup), som tam (papaya salad) and a wonderful street desert with black beans and coconut milk. I also just had some nice durian which is a Chinese fruit that sort of smells but is delicious.
Am still overcoming my jet lag will try to get my 4x5 our on the streets in the next few days, today shot a Leica M6 and 28mm lens and also with a Xpan panoramic with 45mm. Fun to shoot 35mm Trix again but need to shoot some larger formats as well for better image quality. Tomorrow I will take the blad out of the shipping foam and shoot some color heads with the ring flash.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Am In Thailand
After a long uncomfortable flight I am in Bangkok. Screaming children, a plane packed to capacity and very little sleep made for a tough trip. I am in Bangkok now trying to get over the jet lag. I expect it to take a day or two to recover, tomorrow I am going to do my first exploratory trip to the Klong Toey slum.
I had some some wonderful Thai food today, raw oysters and squid in a sour soup with peppers.
Going to get some sleep now.
I had some some wonderful Thai food today, raw oysters and squid in a sour soup with peppers.
Going to get some sleep now.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Flying To Thai Soon
Been working, working and working, not much time for anything else including blog entries. Soon thou I will be in Thailand and will start the Khon Thai series of photographs I have been thinking and writing about for at least 1 year.
I am excited by the possibilities for these photographs, my head dances with images. The photographs I take this trip will be part of a group show with 2 other photographers (2 very good photographers!) one who shoots in India and another who will have his most recent work shot in Bangladesh showing.
I will be posting updates from Thailand on what happens and how the photographing is going, if your interested come back for some reports.
Am also anxious to see old friends and enjoy a good Thai meal. Oysters anyone?
I am excited by the possibilities for these photographs, my head dances with images. The photographs I take this trip will be part of a group show with 2 other photographers (2 very good photographers!) one who shoots in India and another who will have his most recent work shot in Bangladesh showing.
I will be posting updates from Thailand on what happens and how the photographing is going, if your interested come back for some reports.
Am also anxious to see old friends and enjoy a good Thai meal. Oysters anyone?
Saturday, October 30, 2010
New White Background Sex Worker Scans
Been very busy scanning negs for a submission, I hope to get my first one man show. Here are some of the scans.
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